Hit Me Where It Hurts... :'(

Hey guys.. I cudnt blog ta last few days bcoz of my screwed modem. I juz hv so much to say.. It has been a difficult week tho. Despite havin a great bday last fri, n passin ta test! Everytin else has been very upsettin. My sis’s house got broken into.. Tats juz ta worst thing she had to go thru.. Y is it tat they hv to go thru tis? They were here wit ta fly to celeb mother’s day but ten wen they went home, everytin is ruined. Cds all over ta place, knife on ta table, money all gone.. But thank god they were not at home. I cant imagine wat I wud hv done if anytin happened to my sis n bil… im so glad tat they were here at ta time of ta robbery. I dunno y r things getting more n more complicated.. Even ppl tat im close to r drifting away from me.. People change as time passes by… But not them.. Y does it hv to be them? She hurt me badly.. Very badly.. I juz dunno wat else to do.. N ta otr one is so rude to me these days… Maybe bcoz she’s sick of me. Or she has finally found her love n there goes the attention. I love them.. So much. But they hv hurt me.. They sed sorry. I did too.. But is tat gonna make things better? I dunno. I dun tink so. I dun hv ta patience to go thru all tis.. Ive nv argued wit her b4… We were so close. But all of a sudden she sed things I nv xpected her to. Why? As usual there r no answers to my questions. But I love my sisters. N I noe ive lost them.. Ive lost them wen they hurt me.. Things can nv get back to normal.. Anyway, I didn’t go to coll on mon to help out at my sis’s place. Also to tk ta blood test im required to. Results out today. Or maybe tmw. Im so scared. I hope everythin’s fine.. Ive had enuf of health probs.. I juz dun need tis.. I really don’t. They say tat they understand wat im goin thru but ta truth is Im goin thru all tis alone.. They don’t know bcoz they r not in my shoes. All ta pain I hv to go thru.. Im sick of pretendin as if everytin is all rite.. Im sick of bein strong wen im not. Wen is all tis gonna end??? Wen?