25th Dec 08

I sed YES!! to him... I chose tat date as its a memorable date fr d both of us..He least expected it tho :P Haha... We went fr movie at Pavilion.. Den he brought me to TGI fr lunch.. It was really a romantic outing.. We had great food.. N i suddenly told him.. "Its 3.. He sed so? Den i sed to him, mark the time n date in ur heart.. Coz i wana officially be ur gf. He was like WAT??? I was juz too shy to repeat tAT to him.. I saw happiness in his eyes.. He was juz 2 shocked to say or do anytin.. Hehehe.. His eyes was teary.. I felt lk cryin too.. Tears of happiness i wud say.. Cudnt go to kirstie's place coz it waa a really big day fr me. He got his car yest. Evrytin kinda fell into place fr him.. :) N im happy fr tat. Went fr our 1st ride 2daY. His fly invited me over fr lunch. Den he sent me home :) Dropped by awhile to c d babies n left aft taT... Tats bout it fr now.. N yeah, 2009 is comin... N imma keep my words.. My blog aint gone be pvt anymore.. So tis wud probably be my last public blog :P Cya in 2009!!!

CraZeeeeEEEE!!

Yes! Me luv tat song by Pitbull ft LiL John. Tats my latest addiction. I can go on n on listenin to tat song on my phone. N eventually go CRAZY!!! Hehehe.. Ok im juz free coz ive got notin else betta to do?? :P Its a holiday fr selangor today!! YaY!! Thanks to d sultan of selangor. K wt am i crappin bout exactly nw? C ive gone crazy!!! :D Its december n its d year end again... Tis time of d year brings bak lots of memories to me.. Some of which are sweet n sum tat r quite bitter i shud say. Arvind n i became an item 3 years ago around tis time. He was my chilhood sweetheart. My 1st ever true love. Ive liked hm like fr 8 years. N v evetually broke up like 8 mths later.. Seriously, tat was d most toughest phase i had to go thru in my life. Loosin sum1 so dear to me is a living nightmare. It hit me real hard n i took vr vr long to actually let go.. D wound hv nt completely healed ryte nw tho. Ive got notin against him but... GOD S GREAT. He is goin thru difficult times ryte now in his luv life. He claims tat tis s d payment time fr wt he has done to me.. But ive never cursed him or watsoever.. I noe he is badly hurt n i pray tat he wil find his true happiness sumday.. Den came Ganish into d pic.. He was like a "GOD SENT" gift to me. He came at d right time.. Wen i needed sum1 to lean on. I never really had many guy frenz in my life n im glad to hv found him coz he s juz so sweet. I knew he liked me n all so i thought i shud hv sum space in between of us tat time coz ive got no place fr luv in my heart tat time.. But he was stil der, been a faithful friend. Time passed again n came Vin into d picture.. He seemed sweet n all. N he was lucky enuf to be d 1st online guy friend i dated. Tats was real risky u noe.. Well to me it is.. Had ppl advicin me on wt to do n all d safety precautions i had to take.. Dey juz luv me. Ryte?? We got to noe each otr better n he seemed to be d perfect boyfrined material. Well never judge a book by its cover. Tats wt ppl say ryte?? Coz new broom sweeps well. I accepted him into my life tho i had many objections.. We got along really well n all.. Den aft a few mths, i c us drifting apart.. For many personal reason in which i dun wish to adress here. I hate liars. Nuff said. Juz throw me a lie n ull hv to pay dearly fr it. We eventually broke up. Ryte aft my 21st bday!! Wish we wre juz frenz fm d very beginnin.. But he has also eventually moved on. Vr unlikely to wt he has told me once.. Guys, wil alwiz be guys. I moved on, looked fr jobs online n applied to a few agencies. Attended d 1st ever interview in my life n i nailed it!! YaY!! Started work n live a workin life in which is full of ups n downs..

My one n only lil sista, KIRSTIE whom i really love so much, tore my heart into pieces n we broke up (as in pet sis) in Dec last yr.. I was really upset coz she s one of d most imp person in my life.. N she acc gave up on me for a new gal she met n she rarely knows. Anyways... Met her again sum wher around tis year at Shy Theng's bday party. I knew i was gona c her n i was prepared. I thought she was comin wt her new beAu but she came wit Ava. She acknowledged me but i was all mixed up inside. I was excited seeing her like aft half a yr. But ta anger was in der too. didnt really enjoy at d party coz she was sittin der watchin me 24/7!! Den aft a few days i saw her online n v chatted. She called me out fr a drink n i accepted. We bonded once again. N she broke up wt her beau around tat time 2. She stayed over my place a few times.. N one day wen v wre chattin n tokin bout stuff she asked me to be her sis again. Hell i sed YES!! I juz luv her alot... Wonder if she knows tat. Ive forgiven her long long time ago coz i noe she wil one day realise wt she has done.. Nt to say im perfect. Thanks to her, she opened up my eyes. To nt tk ppl fr granted. But she cud hv told me all tat in a betta way la. Anyways, here we are, stronger den ever. Tho i dun c her often, but my luv fr her juz bundles up all d time :) Luv u loadz SIS!!

Now...HE has been der since day 1, givin me support n all. He proposed to me on Aug 1st. I said i needed time.. Til now. Here i am.. Tinkin of d nxt step i shud take. Waitin fr d right moment. A step tat i pray wud lead to my eternal happiness, I WISH.

I'M BacK!!!

Yes i am. Like finally. Its been a mth since i last blogged. OMG. K here it goes. IVe beeen really really bz. :( Thanks to d project im handlin. PULLMAN PUTRAJAYA LAKESIDE HOTEL. The same project ive been handlin since day 1 i worked. ITs finnaly comin to an end. Hae been goin to d hotel severaL times wt d boss to check on d progress n the installation of d signages we did fr d hotel. Have beeen sOoOOOO bz dat i even had to work YEST!!! Its a sat man. My plans to watch movie oso ruines coz of tis... Im juz so frustrated wt work la. MY daily life is all bout work work n work. Wen i tell ppl bout d pressure im facin, dey say normal la.. D actual fact is dey dun noe wt im goin thru.. Ive got PLENTY of work man. Can u imagine?? D hotel has like 4 blocks?? Eack block with diff concepts?? N im handlin d signages of d whole hotel?? Includin d exterior signages, parking n etc. All by myself. Hope ill get a good bonus aft tat n increment hopefully. :) Here's a pic of d hotel.



Now back to d story of my life. Well, my blod aint gona be public anymore startin fm JAN 1. :) Simply coz my life is nt an open book. I prefer it to be pvt n accessible only too ppl i love. <3 Yeah, u. Yeah, but mayb nt u. :P N to ppl hu tinks dey can acc make me jealous by postin pics of gurls n composin poems n all, GET A LIFE dude. Coz i simply dun CARE!! Ive got my happiness too. Evry is happy. Kirstie s happy, im happy, evry1 is. Coz we've finally found sum1 hu actually makes us happy. RYte sis? Uve been vr faithful to me, waitin fr me aft work tho ur tired too.. Tho its late wen i acc leave d off. Ur d sweetest ting ive ever came across. I duno hw long mre wil tis happiness last but im sure u wil alwiz be der fr me thru thick n thin, whether we become one or not. YOU COMPLETE ME..
Here goes to SHALINI PRASATH...

I'M SicK...

Yes i am. Im on mc since yest. Never had d chance to even check my mails fr almost 2 effin weeks!!! Coz i was tied up wt lotsa work lately.. Been skippin meals at work n havin dem around tea time juz to get ta work done. :( Guess my body juz cudnt tk it any longer. Cnt wait fr nxt week. Im gona enjoyenjoyenjoy!! Ok here goes. Last week i went fr my 1st site visit in regards with the project im handlin. Wit my boss of course. To the Pullman Hotels & Resorts, Putrajaya. Ta hotel is rely HUGE i tell ya. Its nt rely completed anyways.. Tats y we had to go der to check on the signages.The hotel is gona hv a soft launch tis nov. Tho it was dusty n all, it was hell of an experience. Met the architects n contractors . These ppl r nt an easy bunch to work wit i tell u... Hmm... Anyways.. Acc im feelin kinda weak to be sittin if front of ta comp ryte nw but der r stuff i need to saay here. Dear vin, plz stop bloggin bout me n get a life owk? Wats wit the pics bein posted la weyh? Dun talk bout luv to me k. Juz nt to me.. I know wt luv means to u.. LIES. Ryte? Ive had enuf of tis k. If ur tryin to get sympathy find it elsewhere la k. I aint turnin bak to d day uve hurt me wit lies. Well guess tats wat ur gud at ryte? LIES.. Controllin my life til ta max!! Dun expect me to stay in ta same spot tinkin of u n waitin fr sumtin to happen.. U r a MISTAKE in my life. It takes so much fr me to say tis but yeah. I dun care la k if ur seeing sum1 new o shes ur new found fren o watsoever k. I juz DONT CARE!!! U tink im jealous? Hahaha tats d last ting ill ever feel k. U acc hv the guts to tell me tat u stil luv me? WTH. Ur bein pathetic arent u? Plz dun make me say stuff i dun want to k. PLZ. N plz, stop posting pics of us in ur blog la k. I hope tis wud be ta 1st n ta last time im sayin tis 2u.. Ive got a life, get yours!!

01 / 10 / 08

Another imp date to be remembered... Kirstie is bak wit me again!!! She's my sista, stronger den ever!! N i meant wat i told u yest lil sista. Imma mark ta date in ma calendar, the calendar in ma H.E.A.R.T. :) Love ya!! N yes, i finally went clubbin!! On shal's bday. N tat wont be ta last i tell yah!!! Hehehe... OMG im acc damn free tat i can acc blog ryte now. Hahaha... Been rely bz wit work. Didnt expect design field to be tis hectic tho i knew it aint easy but yeah. Im gettin confirmed tis fri!! Time flew n its nw time fr me to be confirmed. Officially a GRAPHIC DESIGNER yohh!! Cnt wait cnt wait!!!

mE TiReD... :(

Yes i am... Its juz monday n im oredi tied up wt loadz of work.. Last weekend was fun. Arvind called me out fr a drink on fri so as usual shal, him n i went la.. We went to bangsar tis time. :) ME n bangsar is like FAR FAR AWAY. N yea it was way pass my bedtime thanks to him fr comin late!! We juz makaned n lepaked awhile. Neways its amazing tat he remembers sum vr special thoughts bout ta past.. Juz surprised he brought it out. Sat was borin.. N sun was FUN!!! Went shopping wt ganish n shal. Tis time it was real SHOPPING. Got my pay u c. :P Finally bought ta shoes.. N a few baju fr work n nt forgettin fr shal's bday!! :) Imma help her wt deco n stuff. Its her big day i i wana be a part of it! :) K i duno wt else to say cos its my bedtim now. Yes its only 9.22, n yes i noe im crazy :P Moreover my usual bedtime is at 8.30 :) Hehehe... K den. Buzzin off.

mY NeW cHapTeR..

Ive got so much to say… Duno where shud I start.. :) Ive essentially found ta smile ive lost long ago..Thanks to him.. So here goes.. I agreed to go out on a date wt him last sat. Guess it was d most beautiful date ive ever had. He juz knows how to put a smile on my face… Lemme juz say tis post is specially dedicated to tat special sum1.. Hu has alwiz been der for me, guiding me thru thick n thin. My eyes were blinded by the beautiful friendship we had.. U r evrytin he’s not.. U make me feel very very special. Ur the oni one hu shared all my deepest secrets.. My emotions n sorrows tat I cudnt bare to share wt any1 else.. U helped me open up ma eyes n c tings ive failed to understand before.. U understood evrytin fm day one. Now im stronger coz I hv u by my side now n forever. :) I was juz too blind to c evrytin uve done fr me.. U made a lot of sacrifices fr me.. Now im a changed person coz of u.. Life taught me alot n now im beginning to feel LOVE once again after loosin faith in it.. U made me realize tat der r guys out der hu can LOVE sum1 so truly wtout expectin anytin in return.. Without takin tat special sum fr granted.. Ive fell in LOVE several times b4 but I duno y tis time its rely hard fr me.. Perhaps coz of ta experiences ive had b4. Im stil in the ‘movin on’ process so I hope ull wait fr me. Im sure u will. Aft all uve been waitin like..forever?? Hehehe. I mean, no guy has even treated me like u do.. I guess its normal fr any gal to say tis in ta beginning but I noe u long enuf to judge you.. N yes, ill give u a chance… A chance to show me LOVE.


Ive alwiz needed sum1 to show me passion
To prove that with me through it all will stay
But all my life I suffered from alienation
So I didnt knew exactly the right path to take

I was weak to climb alone
The mountains of my fear
Couldnt find a place like home
Where I could fill with my own salty tears

No one could help me
No one was there
I was a stranger
But nobody cares

All by myself
Had to survive
Was running from LOVE
But nowhere to hide

Always here but never had I predicted
That loving You could make me feel this way
Was down in love but love is You, so lifted
You complete me in every way

I was weak but you made me strong
Always down you righted this wrong
And finally I found my place, my home

When no one could help me
You were always there
I was a stranger
But You always care

Without Your love
I wouldnt survive
Was running from You
But now I WILL TESTIFY YOUR LOVE...

01/08/08

Its a day to remember... Yes. 1st tings 1st, i got a haircut!! Did i mention it in my previous blog?? I don rely remember neways!! Haha.. I got a long layered cut n im lovin it!! :D Hv been bz workin n stuff..at i fogot to blog. N yes,a nother imp info hre nt to be forgotten.. Im gona DELETE TIS BLOG SOON N GET A NEW ONE :) Duno wen wil tat happen la but nt now. DOin it cos i wan my pvt life to be oni known to those hu r close to ma heart ONLY. :D I went out on frin wt shal ganish, kirs n a bunch of kids, YES u heard me right, KIDS.. Shal's couz's la.. Kirs stayed over again tat day. We talked til morning as usual.. Hehehe... N yes we had a hell of a sexy time! :P She layan-ed my nephew n niece. Dey seem to like her alot i dono y!! Muz be sumtin to do wt ta gender prob. Oopps! SORRY!! N gettin bak to our main story here.. 1st of August is definately a day to remember.. Coz no one has eva done tis fr me n im rely touched.. I got proposed!! Yes in public!! I was damn shy i tell u.. But i knew wt i wanted to do n ive oredi made up my mind so i told him... "Not now.. Im not prepared fr another relationship.." I saw sadness in 'his' eyes.. N tat made me sad too.. Im rely nt prepared fr tis. Nt now.. I asked fr time tats it.. I broke up like 3 mths ago?? Im nt rely lucky wen it cums to luv. Im rely nt into tis now la.. But but but, "He who makes me happy shall have my HEART". Tats my quote fr ta day!! So hu knows, i mite be taken once again. :)

iM BacK!!!

Hahaha yes u got me right. Im bak. I was juz emo-ing la tat day. Hehehe.. Acc no time fr blog all these days so ill try to wen i hv ta time to la!! Juz cam home fm work. Dead tired la.. Many tings hv happened 2me eversince my last blog. My life has an added shine to it nw since kirstie is back into my life..Yes she's back. Der's notin u or any1 can do bout it. :D We went out a few times n she even slept over 2 weeks bak. :) We talked til bout 3.am.!! Hahaha ill not forget tat.. I was so sleep n she was putin me to sleep. *so sweet* But i was stil talkin, but in my sleep la. LOL. DaMn cute la ta way she sleeps.. Hehehe she reminds me of fran. I dono wt ta hell has happened to her btw... N if ur readin tis FRAN plz buzz me k. Its been along time.. Ta weekend was ok. Went to kajang last sat fr my couz sis, Bina's 21st bday party. Supposed to follow Arvind's car der but as usual Mr.Presidente' s vr bz so we followed his bro instead! He came soon aft tat. It was borin la btw.. Felt out of place sice arvind's parents wre nt der. Dey had to attend another function n wud be late. We waited but den it was gettin too late so we left. N yes b4 i forget, we met an accident otw to kajang!!Dun wana talk bout it la k. All i can say is im glad to be alive ryte now :)Owk i went out yest wt shal n ganish. :) To mv la wher else.. Omg tis shal n ganish can rely fite i tell u. Dono yla.. Even arvind enjoys fightin wt her. Hehehe.. We lepaked at sfc since its his 2nd home :P OOOppps!! Hehe. Btw thanks fr ta drinks ya!! Ur such a sweetheart!! <3 Me lucky to hv u in ma life.. Hmmm.... Anyways, omg i dono wt mre shud i say.. Tats bout it la fr now. Im off to bed!! NiteZ!

mY LasT bLoG...

Yes u read it right. Tis wil be last blof of mine YOU wil be readin... But tis time, its fr real.. Simply coz i dun tink its necessary nemore.. My life is nt an opened book. Nt anymore. Ta main purpose i blogged is bcoz of kirs n fran. Kirstie is GONE n FRAN... I duno wt happened to her. Im givin up evrytin tat was once close to my heart... All cos im hurt, REAL BAD tis time.. Guys simply cnt WAIT. WAITIN is nt in their dictionary. But wait, do i luk like a care? I noe i deserve much better. """But here goes to u, quote of ta moment "I HATE YOU"!!!!! N yes, i mean it. I spend almost one friggin year wt u n wher does it go to?? TRASH!! U go around convincin ppl tat im bad, nt you. Go ahead, as ive sed, do i luk like i care?? But god is watchin. Ud be mre surprised to noe hu else hates u n cnt stand ta sight of u. But im nt gone reveal it to u. Crack ur head figurin it out. Coz i simply DONT CARE. I knew u wud do tis one day so luckily i decide to leave b4 u did. """ Anyways, since its my last blog lets get u ppl readin. Workin was ok. Comin bak late is rely nt my cuppa coffee but wt to do, i dun hv a choice. Got my 1st PAY 2day tho its oni been a week i started coz its ta last day of ta mth. Its my 1st pay as a GRAPHIC DESIGNER!! :) But nt rely excited bout it tho. Workin environment was nice. All comps r MAC based. Lotsa projetcs to complete n its kinda hectic. Coz ta Big Boss has very high expectations on his design team. N we hv no choice but to meet tight deadlines. Tats bout it. N yes, i feel off ta stairway on fri. I fell twice. N my knee got hurt kinda bad. Stil nt sure whether i fell coz of my skirt o my heels. :| But puzzled hw cum i fell twice. Its tat bad tat it stil aches til nw. Hmmm.... So i guess tats bout it la fr now.... Notin else to say. Thanks fr sparin ur time readin tis all tis while.... Goodbye.

I GoT Ta JoB!!!!!

Yes i did. Ok tis is how it exactly went ok. Was waitin fr arvind's arrival last fri. Juz as soon as he stepped into ta house, even BEFORE i cud welcome him in, my hp rang. It displayed KDC. Yes i saved their no juz in case.. It was ta 'big boss' hu called me!! Imagine hw scary was tat!! I was real shaky even wen i attended ta interview n it was only him n i den!! He called n asked ta usual stuff on whether i got a job dy o nt. Den i sed no. Of course la no coz o only attended one interview!! DUH!! He asked if i wud like to join his creative team n i sed YES!!!! SURE!!! :D I was really excited. Imagine i nailed it der!! 1st job interview n i got it!! Workin hours is fm 9-6 n oni on weekdays. So guys, u noe wen to nt bother me ok. :P He asked me tp start on mon which is tmw!! Damn excited. Den aft hanging up, i went to ta hall n juz smiled at arvind n told my dad i hv gud news. I GOT TA JOB!!! He straight away came n hugged me n kissed me. Hehehe... I felt shy la kan. In front of arvind sum mre. LoL. Ta news made my day even mre great. So accompanied him fr lunch cos he was late den viewed sum vids he recorded den got ready coz shal juz fin work den. Dressed n we left fr OU. It was an awesome day watchin him n shal arguing. Hehehe.. Wt can u expect fm both ppl hu shared ta same bdays ryte? Dey wil definately hv a conflict of opinions. On purpose tho!! Yes dey share ta same bday!!! N shal n i share ta same name!!! Isnt tat great?? Den we bought tickets to watch 'The Happening'. Ta movie was nice la. Den we headed home coz it was late dy.. N we needed to hv our dinner so we stopped by at Citrus Park n had Nando's. Shal basically spent her whole time der watchin a guy she likes nxt door at Secret Recipe. Hahahaha... Den arvind fetched a fren of his fm ta station den sent us home.. He had to rush to klang. But enjoyed to ta max la wt him n shal. Nw im confident tat we can stil be gud frenz wt our ex's. Well i can. Its juz a matter of interest. We've talked bout our differences n solved all misundertandins. Like two matured ppl. N here we are, bein such great frenz. Den on sat, went fr massive shopping. Ive never shopped like tis i swear!! I bought loads of stuff. Formal blouses, heels, pants, skirts, much much mre!! Was rely tired by ta time we came home. But has great day shoppin wt sis n mom. Wil go get mre clothes wen i get my 1st pay!!! :D Hmmm... Wt more can i say?? Im a totally tranformed person now!! Hehehe.. So wish me well guys!! :)

JoB InteRVieW

Yes i went fr my 1st job interview today. It went on ok la. Dey sed dey wil get bak to me asap. Hope ill get ta job. If nt there den mayb sumwher else. I hv no prob wt tat. But juz hopin ill get ta first job i applied fr la. I noe its kinda impossible but i do have hopes. But i was told tat if im selected fr tat post den ill start in july. So, ill hv plenty of time fr more shopping n spend mre time wt loved ones. :) Hmmmm... Moving on, as much as i thought, guys do move on kinda fast. Nv expected it to be tis fast (RAPID) but at least ive learned mre wen it cums to guys. Dey cnt wait forever, impatient, demanding, obsessive, n much mre. Guess i was juz wrong. I need to hv mre options nxt time so ill make a better choice n NO MORE MISTAKES. I hate ppl hu r very egoistic. Never to admit their own mistakes but put ta blame on otrs. HELLO??? Do i luk like i care? As long as GOD n i know ta truth ok. But thaNk god tis time it dint hurt as much as it did b4... At times it feels kinda lonely but guess its better den bein wt sum1 n pleasin dem but im NOT HAPPY. Ryte? Hmmm. Kla den. Tats all fr now.. :D

i'M SiNgLe...

Yes, nuff sed. We r no more together... N its official. :| It acc happened a mth ago. Right aft my bday. Guess evrytin happens fr a reason ryte? Fr now, i wana concentrate on my career. Tats most imp. Love is juz a word.. It wil alwiz remain a word til u find ta right one. Ill juz wait fr my turn.. Went to genting last weekend wt fran n chakbil. It was FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. :D Im enjoyin alot these days. Cos i mite nt hv ta chance to once i start workin. The otr day went to mines wonderland wt sute, her sis n fran. Was FUNNNNNNNNNN too. But nt as gud as genting la. But GENTING, we wil be comin soon AGAIN!! Tis time wt a diff bunch of ppl!! :D Mayb wt arvind n shal coz den both share ta same bdaY n wen dey got to noe tat its free fr 'all park' if u go der on ur bday, dey straight away sed YES. Poor arvind, he has nt been to ta themepark. (how pathetic) Muahahahaha.. No worries, we will all go der 2gether soon. Cnt wait to go up der again. K tats all fr now. Mite consider deletin my blog soon coz i wont hv time fr it n i dun tink its necessary dy. Hehehe. Til den, chiowz.

mY 21st BdaY :)

I noe ive nt logged fr sumtime nw... Juz dint hv ta mood to to be honest. Lets start from my bday party... I decorated evrytin, n i mean evrytin... Includin ta backdrop. Hehehe.. Had a g8 day. But was lil upset cos sum1 wasnt der. NVM. MOstly wre relatives. Frenz nt tat much coz most of dem had sumtin on tat nite. But glad cos all my close buddies wre der wt me.


Had a blast la basically. Most ppl went bak home by 12. Oni close frenz n sum relatives stayed bak fr ta cake cuttin ceremony. We played musical chairs to keep us occupied,can u believe tat? Hahaha. Even oldies joined in ta fun too!! :D Den bout 1 evry1 left... Fly was insistin on me opening ta gifts tho i was real damn tired. Soi did. Got many interestin gifts. Such as, a white gold ring(thanx sute), white gold pendant (thanx vin), wow evrytin white gold oni. Hehehe... Den a gold nose stud (vin's parents, 2 casio watches (kokee & bil'sparents) & one quartz watch (couz), a revlon makeup set with body shop perfume n stuff (chakbilbabies), a lancome perfume set (dad), a chess set (ganish) n many many more... Juz listed those i rely liked. Hehehe.. Most ppl gave cash la. :) Nthanx fr ta bday wish kirstie. Tho i least expected it frm u, nv rely tot ud rememeber... N a very happy bday to u too. I nou r happy. :D K nuff fr now. At the moment im bz lukin r a job. cnt wait to start workin n earn a living n get my own car!!! Its comin soon...i can smell it. Hehehe. Bye.

CoNFeSSioNs oF a HeaLeD HearT

I noe ive nt been bloggin for sum time now. Tats bcoz im nt rely free also nt in ta mood to blog. Was nt well n of course was bz wt ta damn portfolio! Been bz wt babies too. Stayed over wt sis for few days. Me juz luv da babies!! Darlin Kayshef n Kayra. :D K now i wana express sumtin ive been hidin inside me. Im nt sure whther ive been hidin it o juz dint even tot bout it.

Sisters. A bond tat never cud be broken... But at times it does get broken. Why? Bcoz of lack of love? Lack of trust? Or simply bcoz of a 3rd party... Tat day on my way home from coll.... I suddenly tot of Kirstie. Why? Y all of a sudden? Y now? Its been more den 4 mths now since we broke up. Seriously, ive nver been so mad at sum1 ta way im mad at her... Why? Duno wana talk bout it la now k. Lets juz get to ta bottom line. Y dont i miss her? Y dont i care bout her anymore? Tis question was runnin thru my mind.. N i finally found ta ans... Coz she is happy. Happy 2b wt sum1 hu makes her happy. Happy tho she knows she's hurt me so BADLY So why shud i care? Im nt sure y ppl i love alwiz hurt me badly... Arvind did tat once, den kirstie. Who's nxt? FraN? Vin? I duno... But all i know at the end of ta day is we all have only one ting in our lives we can hold on to. FAMILY Yes, n ourselves. Try nt to let any1 hurt you... Coz dey r nt worth a tear... Not mine.
But yet again, nt evry relationship desrves a 2nd chance, but all love is worth a 2nd try :)

K tats bout it for now. I wana get bz wt ta preparations of my 21st bday party celebration!! :D Ta invitation card is ready. Wil get dem printed n sent out asap. All's blue ppl!!! Imma 'blue' gal Hahahaha... Well tats my fav color so fair enuf. :) Nuff said, Bye for nw.

i'M a GrADuaTe :)

Yes, i hv finally graduated. FINALLY aft all ive been thru tis past 3 yrs, it all has been paid off. N im glad n happy. Fist tings, first. The babies went home on sat. :( Coz their 1 mth period here is over. Bil's parents came over at 2 to tk dem home. It was an emotional departure... Coz the babies were here for a mth. Den dey were leavin.... :'( All of us were in tears. But dey wil eventually cum bak here tis sat coz ders another lunch but tis time for close frenz n all. Im cookin wt mom. (juz like deepavali :P) Hehehe... Aft dey left, ive been bz wt my preparations of my convo. Did my nails all by myself. D.I.Y. yoh!! Vin stayed over so it wil be easier for us all to go for ta convo. I had to be der at the hotel at 2.Dad dropped mom n i only coz she had to help me wt ta saree. Wen i went, i was the only one der!! Typical 'lazy' ALFA students!! LoL. Den colleen came.. N a few more. We took our studio pics. I was in formal den. Den at bout 4, i changed into my saree. Wen i came out of ta washroom, der was so may ppl der oredi. N all eyes were at me.. I was so shy... Mayb coz im ta only gurl wt saree der. Hahaha. Den took pics wt frenz n all. Dad n vin came at 6. We managed to snap a few pics b4 ta ceremony started. N btw vin gv me flowers!!! He's so sweet. My 1st bouquet of flowers!! Thanks hun. <3 All graduates were asked to gather outside ta ballroom den. Den came the most awaited moment. My heart was beatin so damn fast i swear!! All of us went thru ta red carpet one by one... I has a lil difficulty walkin wit ta robes on n saree in ta inside. I wad pretty slow. Hehehe. Den we took our seats. Der was sum borin speeches n all. Den came ta 2nd part. Ta convo started wt scrolls bein presented to students of architecture, den int.architecture followed by graphic design and multimedia design. I was the last person to get my scroll for GD. So a lil more excitement der. I was rely worried bout gettin on stage coz of my saree. Had to walk carefully. Dun wana trip n fall n bcum ta laughing stalk in ta convo. LoL. Hehehe. But it went on well. Got my scroll n took photographs. Wil post those pics wen i get dem aite? I was relieved by den coz its over. Haha. Got a cup of drink outside b4 we took our seats again. Den all graduates were asked to rise n we were officially declared ALFA INTERNATIONAL COLLEGE GRADUATES :D N evry1 clapped n cheered. So many ppl were takin fotos n all. Den we all went up to ta stage for a group foto. Tat was rely cool. Threw our mortar boards up aft we took pics. We were all very very happy. Den snapped personal pics wt frenz n all. Den we returned our robes n all n joined respective flys for dinner. The entertainment was gud!! Esp ta indian dance!! Laughed my ass out man. Hahaha... Ta food was rely nice but duno y colleen dint like it at all! Hmmm.. Ta dinnner was over by 10.30. Den hugged n wished evry1 luck in their future undertakings. Snapped a few more pics n we were DONE. cum c pics.... Hehehe

I'm DoNe...

Nuff Said :D Nxt, graduation. hehehehehe...

BaBiEs.. <3

Yes they r here. Oh how i luv them!! They r the best ting tat ever happened to me. I went to class as usual in ta morn coz its finals. Cant miss dem. Ten sis called n sed she's gona deliver at 3. Ceasarian. Went home n mm cooked her lunch n all ten we left for hosp. Babies were born at 3.31 (male) n 3.33 (female). They were damn cute. Since ten it has been really HECTIC i swear. But its all worth coz i love dem alot. ALOT. I tink im ta one hu s alwiz ther wt them. Ta moment they cry n all. N i carry dem too. :) So fragile n small. I luv dem. OMG!! Geram. Even now they r bein fed. N bil juz briught ta boy in. Gv him a kiss!!!! OMG!!! GERAM. Gona go play wt him nw. Bye...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY HUN!!

Ya i noe its fri n vday was yest but i had no time to blog ok. Went out on wed wt my love. :) Started off as an ordinary day.. Went to coll in ta morn to discuss wt lecturer. Came bak at bout 10.30 n cont wt assigns til i realise its almost 5!!! OMG!! I shud be gettin ready by ten. Hahaha... He came bout 6 wt his frenz. They r so sweet to hv planned tis wt him. G wher we were supposed to go was 'supposed' to b a surprise but it was screwed wen sum1 asked wgich way to go n i asked where to? They sed The Curve n i sed right. RIGHT!!! Hahah i knew it by ten!!! Hehehe kena kantoi dy. We lepaked ther awhile n finally went for dinner at TGI Fridays. It was awesome. N tat was a surprise too. Tis time kinda jadi la. :P Ther were many couples ther. We had fun. Snapped pics, had dinner n chit chatted. Aft dinner we took a walk around tat area. Im nt tat kinda gurl hu goes out at nite so tis was real fun. Wt ta one i love. Wait til i get ma car la. Hehehe... Ten they sent me home. Thanks hun for ta great day. Tho we wre apart on Vday itself, im stil happy tat we met at least on wed. <3 Sis was supposed to deliver on vday but ta babies r nt at all interested in comin out. Guess they enjoy each otr's compnay. :) But juz fyi, if by 18th they r nt our, a c-section wil, be performeed on her. Coz its nt safe for ta babies. Finally done wt ta DAMN presentation 2day. It went on ok la. Juz ok. N ta lecturers decided on wen shall our final presentation date. Its on ta 6TH OF MARCH!!!!! OMG so soon. SO much work :( N tat reminds me, GTG now. cya guys!!

i'M NoT Ta oNLy oNe CoMpLaiNiN...

Yes, im not. Guess sumtin's got into 'her'. But hu cares kan? I dun gv two shits nemore... :P Btw, sis is supposed to deliver TMW!!! But ta babies doesnt wana cum out!! Cute kan? Hehehe... PLZ babies, COME OUT ASAP!! Cheriama wants to c u both sweethearts. <3 N guess since she's nt deliverin tmw, our plan for a valentine's dinner is on. Hmmmm but nt sure wt shud i wear tho. Moreover presentation is on tis fri. So much pressure la. N we all wil also attend baby Darshan's bday tis sat. Cant wait fr tat except for ta part wher ill c arvind's face ther (ishness) Went out to mv wt dad 2day to get vin his valentine's gift. Was supposed to go alone but ten i dun wana bump into ppl i dun wish to c ( u noe hu) Went ther, got ta gift, went shoppin to get ta powder puff for babies n had lunch. Great day out basically. Xcept for ta part i hv to cont wt my work NOW. Btw, i had a haircut yest. Dint wana cut juz trim but u noe la tat aunty :P But i like it tho. Kinda short dy. V layered. Kinda cute too (shy) Nt gona post a pic now but soon la k? GTG now. Bye :)

SHUT UP!!!!!!!!

YES. PLEASE!! Juz shut ta fcuk up k!!! Actin as if u know me so well.. U r a nobody to me from tis moment on. U wanted it badly ryte? So i shall let u have a taste of ur own medicine. If at all we r fated to bump into each otr in future... REMEMBER, I DONT KNOW YOU!!!!! I hv no regrets of ta decision ive made. Ta ONLYting i regret is believin in u n takin u in as a sis... Guess no otr mistake is worse ten YOU. Tis wil be ta last blog ur gona read. NO point of me bloggin in ta 1st place. I did it coz u insisted kan? SO from now on, tis blog is only ENTITLED to ppl hu r close to me NOT YOU!! Sorry but i juz cant keep it in me anymore. There is no KIRSTIE in my life diary ANYMORE. Not anymore... Super sister, MY FOOT!!!

i'M BacK!!!

Yes im bak. :) Stayed over at sis's place til yest. Had no time to go online. Longest period of me nt goin online in HISTORY. Haha... So here goes. Went to iella's house as planned. Hmmm... I hv notin much to say bout it la. Juz tk a luk at ta pics :) We were dressed in pink. Except for Sute hu wore HOT pink. Hehe.. N 2day i saw my otr half aft 2weeks!!! :( Me missed him. N luv him. <3 N yea btw, ther r plans to go to further my studies. If i get a scholarship la. Tis time its serious shit. Be there for 2 yrs mayb. N ta place is just SINGAPORE. Hv notin much to say la... :( Juz check out ta pics la k. (prob wt ta pics so juz check out my friendster profile k) Tcare.

SaDNeSS WeeK

Had a bad week. Was nt well. N 'we' had ta biggest argument o shud i say miunsderstandin... :( Yes, we did. I was juz tooOOO pissed. NEVER felt tat pissed b4. Wish tings dint turn out tat way hun. But in evry relationship, ther shud be sum flaws so tat we can improve ryte? N wat surprised me most is wen u sed ur IN FRONT OF MY GATE!!!! OMG hun!! Tat made me more mad. It is sweet hun but nt at 'tat' time k. It snt worth comin all ta way here from cyber juz to say sorry coz i eventually dint cum out did i? Sorry i cud nt hun. U noe tis place isn't 'safe'. I dint hv a gud sleep tat nite. Recallin my past n all. Was damn emo. At tat very moment i wished i had sum1 to comfort me.. My besties r nt around me n im nt ta type hu likes to pour things out. I only did tat to kirstie but she's no more. N how cud i xpress how i feel to vim wen im goin thru a tough time wt him? :( Haihz... Went to mv yest to get iella's gift. Met up wt Ganish there. N met my schoolmate hu was workin wt him!! Wow i was damn happy. N thanks for ta drink Ganish!! :) GOt her a.... (secret) But its made of white gold n diamond la. Decorated it too. Wt u expect from a designer la? Haha. Felt much better yest n vin was tryin his best to make me feel better. N yes hun i do feel better now. Tho ta prob has nt been fixed, i stil luv u. N tat counts ta most ryte? I dun wana loose anybody anymore.. I juz cant tk it la. Ta worst ting ive ever lost was my pet sis n now i cant loose another person im my life. It juz cant happen. Im so in luv wt u.. I like ta way u make me feel better. Sorry for makin ur life hard these past few days hun. U noe i dint do it on purpose. Its OVER n DONE with. :) Is iell'a bday celeb tmw!! We r kinda xcited. Sute is comin over here for me to gv her a maekup!! LOL. Sute n a MAKEUP!! (i know!!) Well no worries ill post ta pics here so tat u can c ta transformation n same time promotin my skills too :) Makeup is an art too ppl!! Hehehe... We r gona be dressed in pink tmw (i guess) since its ta bday gurl's wish!! Wait for ta pics aite? N yes, its HOLIDAYS nxt week. I hv a week hoilday so ill get my assignments done n ten stay over at sis place ten mayb can spend sum quality time wt my otr half :) <3 Cheers!! Hey Valentine's Day is comin. Hmmmm i noe wat to gift him :P Me love you! Me lovey dovey evry1!!!

i'M SicK...

Yes, i am. Hmmmm. N btw, HAPPY 21st BDAY to my dearest friend, IELLA!! She has finally turned 21. I cant wait for my turn la. Another four mths time. Sute is ta best coz she's ta last. She's juzz turned 20 n we all turnin 21 dy!! LoL. Tue la hu ask to be born on dec. Hahahaha... Neways cant wait to c all my close school buddies tis sun on her bday celeb!! I miss dem!!! :( Loads of 21 bday celebs to attend tis yr la.. Lotsa money goin out too. N sute n r plannin to get iella sumtin special coz we r close buddies... But wat it is remains a SECRET... Sure her karat machas all wil cum tis sun. If vin cant make it, it wil be even worse la. But me no scared. U know me kan? I tink ill drive ther myself la instead of troublin sute. :) Hehehe. Btw, i got a new printer!!! Went to digital mall yest to get ta printer hopefully a new scanner tmw!! N i saw Damian ther.. Guess he s workin ther. Dint wana say hi coz he seemed bz. He was talkin to tis dude hu was from my coll. Guess he is workin ther too. Dint say hello no neither of them. Im sick now. So ill blog sum otr time k? Im soOOO bz wt my finals. N btw, congrats. We'll c if 'it' last. Lets juz hope it does. Im sure u wud nt wana screw tis. Loosin sumtin for another which was NOT WORTH at all. U'll learn ur lesson sumday. But dun cum bak 2me wen uve fallen coz ur a nobody 2me now. Ive faced reality. Now its ur TURN. Wat goes around, does cum around.

BaTu CaVeS!!! :)

Yes. I finally went. But b4 i elaborate further on tat, i juz wana let u knoe tat u hv been a faithful companion by my side hun.. N yes, ta pic of me in my saree taken a week ago which u was dying to see so badly :) (shy) Luckily ther was a wed to attend. Lucky you. Hahaha... K i went Batu Caves 2day wt my otr half. Left early in ta morn wt mom, reached his place at bout 8.30. Damn early i know!! Since it was too early, his mom told him to bring me home :) She luvs me!! Hahaha.. Has breakfast there. Ta nasi lemak was real gud. Yummy :( hungry la. Ten we left at almost 11. Wenbt her n prayed at ta temple below ta caves 1st. Ten we started our journey up. I seruosly was feeling exhausted n tired. COz of my damn asthma. Its juz gettin worse i tell u. Lost breath many times. But managed to get up there la eventually. Went n prayed all. But its really dirtyu evrywhere n stinky coz of ta spoilt milk evrywhere. But there was plenty of babies!! But i need not fret no more coz my little angels whgo ill pamper sooOOOO MUCH are on their way dy!! Most probably in 2 weeks time!! (earliest la) Ten we went down. It was much easier gettin down. Norm la kan. Ten we went to ta shops below but ther were nt many stall la tis yr. GOt my self henna on my hands but its nt dark. Wasted. Bought sum sweets for my fly ten we makaned out at selayang mall. Im seriously eatin alot these days!! Hopefully i can put on sum weight on time for my work n of course my 21st bday!! Wana wear a hot dress!! Yes u heard me, DRESS. :) WE shall juz wait n c k. Tats bout it for now. Lets juz pray tat my legs wont hurt 2nite. :(

mE LoVeY DoVeY YoU <3

"HAPPY 6TH MTH HUN!! I LOVE YOU!!"

Happy 'SeMi' aNNiVeRSarY HuN!!

(dedicated to my one n only love)

Things hv changed. Time has flown. N im happy. Hope our love lasts hun. Coz i love you.. N i know u love me too. Tho we've had countless misunderstandings, we manage to fiz them all. Thanks for showin me happiness once again n convincin me tat true love does exist, wen it comes to you. N makin me realise things ive not known, n taught me to be more strong wen it comes to challenges n to learn how to forget wen i forgive. N for bein there for me wen ta rest of ta world walked outta my life. Thanks hun. I love you.


Nuff of bein emo. LoL. Btw, ta batu caves trip has been called off due to sum security reasons. :( Sumtin is rumoured to happen there on tat day. I duno wat. Juz 2be on ta safe side la. Ta best trip there was last yr... Wit ppl i luv by my side.. I'll NEVER forget tat. But im still goin!! Dun care la wit who but im goin!! Not on ta day but mayb later on. :D Now i muz get bk to my assignments!! Cya. <3

"MeeT ThE PaReNTs.."

Hahaha it was a usual day. Got up n started clenin ta house AGAIN!! I dunno wats wrong wt me. Ive change so drastically. Im more like 'gud' gurl now. (i am anyways :P) Ten vin sed he's goin to mv wt his parents to get himself jeans. His mom asked me to join them ther. I was not in game at ta beginnin coz i was kinda bz n needed to cook n all but made it finally. I had lunch at home coz i made black pepper mutton,(i noe ur hungry) so of course ill makan n go kan? They had their lunch too. Joined them ther. I was kinda scared tat ill faint at ta ktm station coz of ta medication im takin now.. It rely makes me drowsy la.. Ish!! But thankfully i reached there safely. :) Helped him get his jeans. I tink i know his size n style better ten his own parents!! :P Glad tho. He too. :) Ten we walked around... N he got me 3 pairs of ear rings.. (so sweet) Those tat he wanted me to use like so badly!! LoL. Hahahaha.. Ten we ate again at Long John's Silver. (tribute to uncle john!!) Hehehehe... We dint quite like it tho. Ten v left. His dad volunteered to send me home tho i refused coz i dint wana trouble them. Ten wen we reached my place, i invited them in. Met my parents FINALLY n evrytin went on well. Guess evrytin is gettin rely smooth over here. Was happy coz they were 'cool' wt each otr. :) His parents treats me rely well. Happy happy. Tats bout it for 2day. Juz wished tat ppl i once loved n cared about were here wt me to witness the happenings n changes in my life but no... Hmmm. Screw it. My classes hv continued for tis sem n hopefully we wil manage to fin it asap!! Btw, i cant wait la to start workin!!!! LoL. :) Adios!!

I'vE ChaNGeD...

Yes, im so diff now... Hahaha.. Guess im gettin a lil prepared for my workin life yeah? :) But ther's a change in evrytin... N im happy.

HaPpY 2008...

K tis is gonna be a long one so i shall start from ta beginnin.. Last nite bein ta eve of ny, we planned to hv bbq GAIN but tis time strictly only fly. So no outsiders. Hehehe... Went shppoin wt dad in ta mor to get all ta stuff needed. Ten bak home n marinated them. Was a tirin day la.. Ten tried to sleep in ta aft but ten a call came from my fren :|Got up n made ta pasta n n prepared ta garlic bread. Vin came rite aft his exams.. K i hv to admit tat ive been a lil too pissed wt him ta pas few days... Even now i am!! But dun blame me coz its his fault. (personal)Guess no one lives happily witout hurtin me kan? So be it. I was too bz to even tink bout it. As usual i let it go. Ten aft tat i mandi n all waitin for him to cum. ChakBil was here dy. They stayed overnite. Went wt dad to fetch vin, he came into ta car, n gave me FLOWERS. I was so touched i dint noe wat to do. For ta FIRST TIME in my life im gettin flowers from sum1!! I was blushin i swear!! He sed it was for all his wrongs to me.. (so sweet) Ten we makaned all 2gether.. Ten came tis weird plan to go to putrajaya to c fireworks!! Only four of us went. But en ther was lotsa jafalafas. Jamed like hell. WE celebrated 12midnite at ta road!! Cool ryte? N dint even get to c anytin coz ta display was blocked by ta prime minister's office bulding :( Ten headed home again. I was kinda happy tat he stayed over. It was real fun i tell u. He went bak 2day. Now its a new year... Another new beginnin. Im 21!!! Wil celeb my bday in 5 mth's time!! YaY!! But ten again, ppl hu were ther for me were not tis time. Was hopin to receive any msg on my hp but ther were none... Only grom frenz. Guess tat proves it all ryte? But time heals all wounds.. Hope tis time it will.. Coz i simply dun wana HATE anyone.. But one ting ive learned, dun ever tink wat uve done for tat 'special sum1' in ta past can keep ta future strong.. Coz at the end of ta day, its ta true colors of ta person tat matters. Im hurt coz ta true colors of my loved ones is bad... Real bad. UGLY. See my eyes r teary. So 'tat' was really goodbye. Im really not over it yet!! OMG!! Wen ur onely, luk at ta bak of u n ull realise hu has been ther for u all along n now ta person is NO MORE... Tats wen ull miss me. K enuf of bein emo. Past is past. Its 2008 now!! Graduation is soon. Im gonna start a new life soon. WORKIN LIFE!! Cant wait for tat.. K gtg now. N yes, i miss you..