BITRHDAY!!

Hey!! Yest was fun. My mom was ta 1st to wish me ten dad n uncle. Fran was sleeping juz next to me but was ta 5th to wish me! Like wat ta hell rite? Haha. Gv her bed n tats the end. LOL. Thanx to all frens tat acc remembered to wish me at 12. "Sis" came ova. We had pizza for lunch wit my so cute dad. Ten fran n "sis" slept! Y r they alwiz sleepin at my place? OMG!! Sleeping beauties! lol. Ten we played wit babies next door again. Haha. Had dinner wit fly at nite.. Wish "he" was there wit me.. But its ok. Im gonna tk things easily from now on.. No more sadness. Life has to go on.. Thanks every1 for everytin uve done 4me! Love ya'll!

Bday Eve

Hey guys.... Wanted to blog bout fran acc. Yest i made nasi lemak. So she came over as usual to hv lunch. It was too spicy according to her so she acc ate nasi lemak wit kicap n sweet! I repeat kicap n sweet! OMG!! I'll upload tat pic of her meal real soon k? Hahaha... Kirs n fran came over today juz to spend sum "sexy" time wit me. Haha juz kiddin. Kirs was not too well n she took a nap awhile. Ten we went out to play wit my fav baby next door. We had soooo much fun playing wit babies! Intan & Putra. They r juz so cute! Intan loved kirs while Putra loved fran. Hehe.. Im sure they dun know tat these two r "bapoks"! Sorry sis! Kidin k. Aft all, its my day tmw rite? So juz takin advantage! Thanks for spendin ta day here ya. N also lookin forward for all ta "disturbance" tat wil start at sharp 12 2nite! OMG.. Wish i cud off my hp. But tat wud not be too nice rite? Hehe. OK guys. Enuf for now. Wil blog next mayb tmw or ta day aft wit pics! PROMISE! Bye! :-)

MeMoRiEs...

Memories… Some r sweet n some r painful. I was juz lookin thru my pic collection today.. To reminisce how did it acc feel bfore.. I was so happy to see pics of me, fran, kirs, shal, sute, ila n all close frens.. We look so happy n stil are.. Ten I juz glanced through “those” pics tat were taken on my bday last year.. I’ll hv to be honest bout tis. Last year was ta best bday I’ve ever celebrated. Tats bcoz I had sum1 I truly loved by my side… Tat was ta best gift of all. He was ta first to wish me at ta stroke of midnight. I was sooo damn happy to hv him in my life. He’s ta best thing tat ever happened to me. We had a barbecue party at my place n invited all my close frens.. Everyone tat completes me were there. Includin “him”.. I remember him promising me tat it’ll be ta 1st bday we wil celebrate together n neve ta last. Tat was a promise he made… n eventually broke it. Its sad to think of how it wil be like tis year now tat we r no more together.. But im happy tat he acc remembered. My eyes were tearful wen he asked me bout my plans for my bday. Wat plans can there possibly be wen I dun hv him by my side? Everyone is so happy wit everything.. Movin on wit ppl they love but im all alone.. My bday wish tis year is ……….. U know wat. But its impossible. Im juz so emo now. Haha… But I know tat I stil hv my fly n frens wit me. Thanks for bein there for me guys.. Me HEART u ppl. Special thanks to Kirstie & Fran for ur support in everytin. For bein there for me wen I needed sum1 to turn to.. I’ll be juz as happy to hv u guys by my side for my bday. Love ya’ll.

LoVe Me WeN u NeeD mE, LeaVe mE WeN U HaTe mE..

Im so pissed rite now... Hurt actually. Me myself dunno why.. I shud not be feelin tis way. AT aLL!! Y is it tat he has so much of impact on me? Why? Why is it tat i cant get over wit him? Why? Why is it tat he keep hurtin n disappointin me? Why is it tat ta small little hopes in my heart aint fading off? Why is it tat i stil LOVE him? OMG.... Im juz so pissed wit myself for bein such a failure.. Feelin so terrible for wat i did not do.. For bein ta victim of all tis n end up bein hurt.. Why? I wish i did not knew LOVE.. I really wish.. Its brings joy & pain at ta same time. All in ta package.. I wish sum1 cud understand me.. Not keep tellin me to move on. I hv moved on guys! Its so simple. U guys dun understand! Tats it. Its not hard to move on but its hard to forget.. My first true love.. My love for 8 years! All gone into ta dustbin! U ppl tink its easy? To act as if im ok? Im so hurt inside. Hurt bcoz im bein punished for wat i hv not done.. "U said u love me.. n ull never leave me." I guess tats ta same thing all guys tells their gals huh? Its so predictable. It wil be very hard for me to fall for another aft you.. N you're to blame. LOVE ME WEN U NEED ME, LEAVE ME WEN U HATE ME....
But wat goes around comes around.

BORING!!

Today was probably ta most boring day in tis year!! Juz days b4 my bday! Omg... Had to go for ta kursus memandu shit for hours wit Shal! Can u guys beat tat? Shal goin wit shal! Two shal's! Thank god they dint get us mixed up. Yea childhood frenz wit ta same name juz a lil diff spelling. But im happy tho bcoz im finally gettin my license! Hehe... I can drive both my "bapoks" around finally! Not forgettin my frens. Soon k guys? Went back to ta driving school at 3 ten guess who called me? KIRSTIE ANNE SEBASTIAN!! I knew she wud hv seen me sumwhere around tat place or y wud she ever wanna call me? Unless she'll feelin sum sorta "vibration". Hahaha... Kiddin k Neero. Dun get mad at me. Im sure Kirstie is smilin now... Hehe dun be shy sis... I noe u love me. Hehe.. Ten shal, kirs n i had lunch at sri meena's. Fran cudnt be there tho bcoz she was juz too busy havin her hair cut! AGAIN! WTF?? Hehe.. Ten took a cab home.. Was so damn tired.. Boring day.. Very boring day.. Except for ta part wen i saw kirstie la.. Hehe i noe ur smilin again sis. Hehe.. We hv juz too many coincidences these days huh? Sumtin muz be wrong here. Hahaha kiddin k. Chill Neero. Love ya sis. Love ya'll! Ok enuf for now. Bye guys!