CoNFuSeD...

I was happy in my last blog... N now im not sure whether tat happiness wil last. Im afraid to loose it. I goin thru a though time at the moment.. Its like wanting to move on but afraid to do so.. Wanting to be loved again but afraid to be hurt again. Wanting you but cant say it. Haihz... Im wanting too many things tat i myself cant get. Ive lost love once. N i dun want it to happen again. So im takin safety precautions. Am i doin ta rite thing? Im so confused.. And i miss fran..so much. The Fran i used to know.. Fran my baby girl.. No matter wat she says or how much she denies it, ive lost her.. Juz like how ive lost him.. N now wen i finally tink ive found happiness, im afraid ive lost it. I hv lost faith n confidence in love. Im not sure who or wat to believe. But u cant blame me for bein tat way. Ive lost my love of 8years.. All i know is i dun want to be awaken from tis dream. Tis beautiful dream of u n me... I dun wanna loose you.. But id rather loose u now ten to be hurt later on.. U need to earn my trust. I want u to. Tats all i ask for... Wil u do tat for me?