CraZeeeeEEEE!!

Yes! Me luv tat song by Pitbull ft LiL John. Tats my latest addiction. I can go on n on listenin to tat song on my phone. N eventually go CRAZY!!! Hehehe.. Ok im juz free coz ive got notin else betta to do?? :P Its a holiday fr selangor today!! YaY!! Thanks to d sultan of selangor. K wt am i crappin bout exactly nw? C ive gone crazy!!! :D Its december n its d year end again... Tis time of d year brings bak lots of memories to me.. Some of which are sweet n sum tat r quite bitter i shud say. Arvind n i became an item 3 years ago around tis time. He was my chilhood sweetheart. My 1st ever true love. Ive liked hm like fr 8 years. N v evetually broke up like 8 mths later.. Seriously, tat was d most toughest phase i had to go thru in my life. Loosin sum1 so dear to me is a living nightmare. It hit me real hard n i took vr vr long to actually let go.. D wound hv nt completely healed ryte nw tho. Ive got notin against him but... GOD S GREAT. He is goin thru difficult times ryte now in his luv life. He claims tat tis s d payment time fr wt he has done to me.. But ive never cursed him or watsoever.. I noe he is badly hurt n i pray tat he wil find his true happiness sumday.. Den came Ganish into d pic.. He was like a "GOD SENT" gift to me. He came at d right time.. Wen i needed sum1 to lean on. I never really had many guy frenz in my life n im glad to hv found him coz he s juz so sweet. I knew he liked me n all so i thought i shud hv sum space in between of us tat time coz ive got no place fr luv in my heart tat time.. But he was stil der, been a faithful friend. Time passed again n came Vin into d picture.. He seemed sweet n all. N he was lucky enuf to be d 1st online guy friend i dated. Tats was real risky u noe.. Well to me it is.. Had ppl advicin me on wt to do n all d safety precautions i had to take.. Dey juz luv me. Ryte?? We got to noe each otr better n he seemed to be d perfect boyfrined material. Well never judge a book by its cover. Tats wt ppl say ryte?? Coz new broom sweeps well. I accepted him into my life tho i had many objections.. We got along really well n all.. Den aft a few mths, i c us drifting apart.. For many personal reason in which i dun wish to adress here. I hate liars. Nuff said. Juz throw me a lie n ull hv to pay dearly fr it. We eventually broke up. Ryte aft my 21st bday!! Wish we wre juz frenz fm d very beginnin.. But he has also eventually moved on. Vr unlikely to wt he has told me once.. Guys, wil alwiz be guys. I moved on, looked fr jobs online n applied to a few agencies. Attended d 1st ever interview in my life n i nailed it!! YaY!! Started work n live a workin life in which is full of ups n downs..

My one n only lil sista, KIRSTIE whom i really love so much, tore my heart into pieces n we broke up (as in pet sis) in Dec last yr.. I was really upset coz she s one of d most imp person in my life.. N she acc gave up on me for a new gal she met n she rarely knows. Anyways... Met her again sum wher around tis year at Shy Theng's bday party. I knew i was gona c her n i was prepared. I thought she was comin wt her new beAu but she came wit Ava. She acknowledged me but i was all mixed up inside. I was excited seeing her like aft half a yr. But ta anger was in der too. didnt really enjoy at d party coz she was sittin der watchin me 24/7!! Den aft a few days i saw her online n v chatted. She called me out fr a drink n i accepted. We bonded once again. N she broke up wt her beau around tat time 2. She stayed over my place a few times.. N one day wen v wre chattin n tokin bout stuff she asked me to be her sis again. Hell i sed YES!! I juz luv her alot... Wonder if she knows tat. Ive forgiven her long long time ago coz i noe she wil one day realise wt she has done.. Nt to say im perfect. Thanks to her, she opened up my eyes. To nt tk ppl fr granted. But she cud hv told me all tat in a betta way la. Anyways, here we are, stronger den ever. Tho i dun c her often, but my luv fr her juz bundles up all d time :) Luv u loadz SIS!!

Now...HE has been der since day 1, givin me support n all. He proposed to me on Aug 1st. I said i needed time.. Til now. Here i am.. Tinkin of d nxt step i shud take. Waitin fr d right moment. A step tat i pray wud lead to my eternal happiness, I WISH.