SaDNeSS WeeK

Had a bad week. Was nt well. N 'we' had ta biggest argument o shud i say miunsderstandin... :( Yes, we did. I was juz tooOOO pissed. NEVER felt tat pissed b4. Wish tings dint turn out tat way hun. But in evry relationship, ther shud be sum flaws so tat we can improve ryte? N wat surprised me most is wen u sed ur IN FRONT OF MY GATE!!!! OMG hun!! Tat made me more mad. It is sweet hun but nt at 'tat' time k. It snt worth comin all ta way here from cyber juz to say sorry coz i eventually dint cum out did i? Sorry i cud nt hun. U noe tis place isn't 'safe'. I dint hv a gud sleep tat nite. Recallin my past n all. Was damn emo. At tat very moment i wished i had sum1 to comfort me.. My besties r nt around me n im nt ta type hu likes to pour things out. I only did tat to kirstie but she's no more. N how cud i xpress how i feel to vim wen im goin thru a tough time wt him? :( Haihz... Went to mv yest to get iella's gift. Met up wt Ganish there. N met my schoolmate hu was workin wt him!! Wow i was damn happy. N thanks for ta drink Ganish!! :) GOt her a.... (secret) But its made of white gold n diamond la. Decorated it too. Wt u expect from a designer la? Haha. Felt much better yest n vin was tryin his best to make me feel better. N yes hun i do feel better now. Tho ta prob has nt been fixed, i stil luv u. N tat counts ta most ryte? I dun wana loose anybody anymore.. I juz cant tk it la. Ta worst ting ive ever lost was my pet sis n now i cant loose another person im my life. It juz cant happen. Im so in luv wt u.. I like ta way u make me feel better. Sorry for makin ur life hard these past few days hun. U noe i dint do it on purpose. Its OVER n DONE with. :) Is iell'a bday celeb tmw!! We r kinda xcited. Sute is comin over here for me to gv her a maekup!! LOL. Sute n a MAKEUP!! (i know!!) Well no worries ill post ta pics here so tat u can c ta transformation n same time promotin my skills too :) Makeup is an art too ppl!! Hehehe... We r gona be dressed in pink tmw (i guess) since its ta bday gurl's wish!! Wait for ta pics aite? N yes, its HOLIDAYS nxt week. I hv a week hoilday so ill get my assignments done n ten stay over at sis place ten mayb can spend sum quality time wt my otr half :) <3 Cheers!! Hey Valentine's Day is comin. Hmmmm i noe wat to gift him :P Me love you! Me lovey dovey evry1!!!